I just feel like im waiting just to wait and the wait just keeps getting longer to the point that i wonder.....what tha f*** am i waiting for anymore.......see im not the type to just give up on an element of life.....but god damn......it seems like the more you want something the more it's inevitably unattainable....but i cant just give up......well maybe i have to.......does anyone understand.........?????


I have been waiting so long that...ive just turned into this yearning fool....that is full of empty want....cuzz so much time has elapsed that i just dont care...my heart grows angry with despair and bitter grief.....so i guess that evolution of what ive been waiting on left a long time ago...ive just been here keeping its seat warm...


How do you warm up a cold heart..........I fear that one day my green eyes will stop shimmering with hope and my face will stop greeting others with a smile.....all the while dying inside......i just want to shout out WHY DOES IT EVEN F****** MATTER....

We are taught to love one another as i child then when you do grow up its all suppose to be about loving yourself .....................WHY DOES IT EVEN F****** MATTER.....

Let's say i do love myself.........and show love to others.....what does it matter...if that love i feel isnt righteously bestowed back upon me??????????????

Im just an angel with broken wings....trying to buy a jet pack.....so i can soar again....but its a f****** useless option............in this world !!!!!

Fiction is fun......but the reality is my heart is scarred and and i cant finish the race where i begun..........i mean what happened??? i used to be smart....and happy....now im f****** know it all..........who's damn near seen and heard it all....and is looking for a reason to care at all..................-Rydlz